Day 2
Day 2: June 25, 2019
I thought I'd start with this little infographic I found on https://www.myendometriosisteam.com/resources/endometriosis-what-people-dont-know-infographic. Now, let's break this down a little bit.
Most people, when asked, will likely state that they think endometriosis is really bad cramps. The "well-versed" masses may even add in heavy bleeding. However, what most people don't realize is that those two symptoms are truly the tip of the iceberg. Personally, I feel a nice healthy combo of many or all of these symptoms on a daily basis. Daily. Basis. Today, for example, my body is serving up a nice recipe of back pain, fatigue, and bloating, with a side dish of depression, weight gain, and pelvic pain. I think the most frustrating part of it is that there is no way to predict how or what I will feel on a daily basis. Oh, and for those of you wondering what hell dysmenorrhea is, it's basically period cramps with a fancy bowtie.
When my partner asks, "How do you feel today?" I literally want to cry every time because I can never, ever just say "Great!" or "Really good!" Usually, it's along the lines of "I'm okay, but super tired," or "Eh, pretty good, except I feel like my ovary is being placed in a vice grip from time-to-time." I actually dream of the day that I can wake up and just feel good. I don't even need to feel great. Good would suffice.
Yesterday, I spent several hours cleaning out my new classroom and then helped my partner paint in his new house. I woke up around 9 and worked through pretty much nonstop until 5. Today, my body hurts, it's hard to even get up from a crouched or sitting position, and I am fucking exhausted. Not just like, oh, I need a nap exhausted. Exhausted like no amount of sleep or rest will help. I am so sick and tired of doing normal, everyday tasks one day, and paying for it the next. Usually, I can clean the house or run errands for a couple of hours before I need to lay down and take a nap. Now, imagine teaching 20 fourth-graders for 8 hours. Yeah, I'm EXHAUSTED all of the time. Even those closest to me, and I know this isn't done maliciously, poke fun at how my typical response is "I'm tired." It's hard to feel anything else when you're either chronically fatigued or chronically exhausted.
Today's post will be relatively short, but I implore you to rest when you need to. There is no shame in taking care of what your body and mind need. If that means going for a 10 mile run, go for it. If it means taking a nap in the afternoon, do you boo. No one has a right to judge you for what YOU need to do to take care of YOU. Notice my overuse of the word YOU. Sometimes it's okay to be selfish. Sometimes it's okay to be angry. Sometimes (all times) it's okay to feel however you feel. And anyone who wants to judge that? Well, that's their own damn prerogative. Don't judge them for being judge-y.
I thought I'd start with this little infographic I found on https://www.myendometriosisteam.com/resources/endometriosis-what-people-dont-know-infographic. Now, let's break this down a little bit.
Most people, when asked, will likely state that they think endometriosis is really bad cramps. The "well-versed" masses may even add in heavy bleeding. However, what most people don't realize is that those two symptoms are truly the tip of the iceberg. Personally, I feel a nice healthy combo of many or all of these symptoms on a daily basis. Daily. Basis. Today, for example, my body is serving up a nice recipe of back pain, fatigue, and bloating, with a side dish of depression, weight gain, and pelvic pain. I think the most frustrating part of it is that there is no way to predict how or what I will feel on a daily basis. Oh, and for those of you wondering what hell dysmenorrhea is, it's basically period cramps with a fancy bowtie.When my partner asks, "How do you feel today?" I literally want to cry every time because I can never, ever just say "Great!" or "Really good!" Usually, it's along the lines of "I'm okay, but super tired," or "Eh, pretty good, except I feel like my ovary is being placed in a vice grip from time-to-time." I actually dream of the day that I can wake up and just feel good. I don't even need to feel great. Good would suffice.
Yesterday, I spent several hours cleaning out my new classroom and then helped my partner paint in his new house. I woke up around 9 and worked through pretty much nonstop until 5. Today, my body hurts, it's hard to even get up from a crouched or sitting position, and I am fucking exhausted. Not just like, oh, I need a nap exhausted. Exhausted like no amount of sleep or rest will help. I am so sick and tired of doing normal, everyday tasks one day, and paying for it the next. Usually, I can clean the house or run errands for a couple of hours before I need to lay down and take a nap. Now, imagine teaching 20 fourth-graders for 8 hours. Yeah, I'm EXHAUSTED all of the time. Even those closest to me, and I know this isn't done maliciously, poke fun at how my typical response is "I'm tired." It's hard to feel anything else when you're either chronically fatigued or chronically exhausted.
Today's post will be relatively short, but I implore you to rest when you need to. There is no shame in taking care of what your body and mind need. If that means going for a 10 mile run, go for it. If it means taking a nap in the afternoon, do you boo. No one has a right to judge you for what YOU need to do to take care of YOU. Notice my overuse of the word YOU. Sometimes it's okay to be selfish. Sometimes it's okay to be angry. Sometimes (all times) it's okay to feel however you feel. And anyone who wants to judge that? Well, that's their own damn prerogative. Don't judge them for being judge-y.
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